The underground world -blog

Back from hell~ XD

2005-10-14T00:08:00.000+08:00

Omg! I've been offline almost half and a month!! Missed you guys!!! My exam just over!! Yahoo!!! I'm free now!!

School holiday will be coming soon~yay! going to find a part-time job to do. Need money to buy cosplay items~ *sign* cause I'm a poor girl~ lolz~ XP

Besides, I'm busying with my graphic site now. Learning the php code and some photoshop design skill. *sign* Gambateh!

AND! I'm going to be very busy watching all the anime me and my brother just borrowed. Almost 100++ CDs and 300++ from the hardware too followed!! O_o;; OMG! My eyes are going to turn like this @_@ after finish watching all of them. There're Shaman King, Naruto, Get Backers <3<3 and many more... *sign* what a busy holiday! Lolz~~ XD XD

My mum and my brother are going to Johor to visit brother Jason next month for 3-4 days, and I'm going to be all alone at home. Should I be T^T or *vv* ? lolz~ both lah! Because, I'm going to die in hunger!!! But enjoying with my beloved pc!! Lolz~ I wanted to follow them but my mum just doesn't want to pay for me the ticket fee... -.-

Em.. that's all for today~ Tata!!

I'm back!! ^^/ bow

2005-08-19T14:45:00.000+08:00

Yosh!! I'm back~ just finished this week's trial. And because of the haze, my BC test will be delayed til 30th. Still have to do revision but BC.. neh~

+` I'll be starting to draw a manga tonight, titled Demon Call. Basically, it's a fantasy and adventure story about a legend of a place called Demon Call in Alcurse Village, and how the main characters search for the place and it's history and background. Something like that. ^^;
This November might be able to post it out, probably in a new website. My mum promise me buying me a scanner after the PMR exam! Yay! XD
So this November might be able to post it out, probably in a website. Probably will find a host in xepher.

+` After you read the above thingie, you might start to think,
"WTF? Your original drawing is sucks! You think you can make a nice online manga? Don't be dreaming! Just continue your copyrighting!" or "You can't do it, is too hard for you. You're not good or original enough."
Nvm. I admit that my original drawing is sucks and not creative. I can't promise anyone of you this manga will be a very nice one. I'm doing this because I like to and I enjoy it. For me, this might be a way for me to practice and develope my style. If you disagree, nvm. ^^

+` And yup! Tomorrow is school holiday!!! XD XD
So many things I can do now! I can sleep as late as I want except for Sunday (cause going to church), I can spend more time in my drawing, my computer~ I can play and dance in the arcade as long as I want! Nyuuu!! XD X3

+` I might be desappear again 2-3 days cause my prepaid almost finish, have to reload again. *swt*

+` I argued with my dad again.. last Wednesday morning. He was just too ridicurios sometimes, and I'm really out of my patient for keeping my mouth shut while listening him insulting and scolding me for no reason. Maybe I was wrong but can't you listen my explaination first before opening your mouth? I still have to face him for another week because his next tour will be around 21st. Hopefully this holiday, I can enjoy it peacefully with him this holiday. Don't spoil my holiday!!

deviant entries

2005-08-12T11:02:00.000+08:00

I updated some entries in my deviant journal, click the link below to see nya~ (lazy to retype again ^^;;)

10 August | 11 August

my thoughts...

2005-08-06T15:59:00.000+08:00

Do you know when someone loves you, cares for you, they'll scold you? Because they wants you to be good and this is what situation I'm facing. I know, I really know. Everyone loves me and cares for me. But yet..I disappointed them. I hate myself. I can't blame anyone or anything about this but I can only blame myself. I SHOULD blame myself.

Brother Jason is right. I have the easiest life in my family. I don't need to work, I don't need to face the bills, the only important thing I need to do is to concentrate in my study and score good result for my parents.

They always nag and ask me why I'm so lazy? Why I'm so naughty? Why I don't understand their situation but make things worse for them? I often ask myself the same question too. I know the answer but yet, I still do it. I hate myself, why can't I have self-control. I can't solve some of my family's problem but at lease I should give my best to them.

I often pray to God for patient, self-control and wisdom to face my day. I often pray for my mum too. And...my dad too. I dislike him but I cares for him. I always remind myself, his my father. Although he have lots of bad points, but on the other hand, he have good points too. I know God is testing our patient. He wants us to stay tough and strong. Our heavenly Father always loves us and cares for us. Besides that, God always forgive us. I know He'll forgive what I did, but I can't forgive myself. I felt guilty for myself... I know I'm making excuses for myself. I know I can be a better person, I can score a better result in my test. I can be a better daughter and Christian. I know that, but it's tough for me.

I cried today. All my hard feelings just suddently popped out. Brother Jason asked me why, and I honestly answered, "I hate myself.." When he asked me for the reason, no words come out from my mouth. It's hard to explain. So I wrote this in my blog and let him and mum read. Now they understand. I felt relieve after all the explaination and all the tears came out. I really do. And I realize I need to be tough. I need a stronger mind and soul to overcome the Satan.

You won't be seeing me online so often, maybe once or twice a week. Cause I realize I need to concentrate more in my study.. so, sorry...

Yesterday, is but a dream

Tomorrow, a vision of hope

Look to this day, for it is LIFE.

Testimony #1

2005-08-03T16:00:00.000+08:00

Feeling better now~ ^^

W00t! The testimony from the Daily Bread is really great! I feel better now after reading it. Hope you like it too~ ^^

Have a Great day!

Read: Psalm 118

I was in a convenience store one day, standing in line behind a man paying for his groceries. When he was finished, the clerk sent him off with a cheery, "Have a great day!"

To the clerk's surprise (and mine) the man exploded in anger. "This is one of the worst days in my life," he shouted, "How can I have a great day?" And with that he stormed out of the store.

I understand the man's frustration: I too have "bad" days over which I have no control. How can I have a great day, I ask myself, when it's beyond my control? Then I remember these words: "This is the day the Lord has made" (Psalm 118:24)

The Lord has made every day, and my Father will show Himself strong on my behalf today. He has control over everything in it -- even the hard things that will come my way. All events have been screened through His wisdom and love, and they opportunities for me to grow in faith. "His mercy endures forever" (v.1). "The Lord is on my side; I will not fear" (v.6), Amen!

Now, when people give me the parting admonition to have a great day, I reply, "That's beyond my control, but I can be grateful for whatever comes my way, and rejoice -- for this is the day the Lord has made."

---David Roper

When dawn announces each new day,

Before you rise up out of bed,

Rejoice -- be glad and give God praise,

And thank Him for what lies ahead.

---Sper

Amen!

heihz...

2005-08-02T20:51:00.000+08:00

Mood' hungry and moody...

Yesterday, I didn't attend school because wanted to catch up with my sleep. I already used the whole night to do my Arts Project and I was tired like hell. So I ponteng-ed. >_>

Mum suddenly waked me up very early, around 6 I guessed. She asked me to find the hotel name card, which was used for the hotel booking thingie for dad. I was still in a bad mood especially after the incident happened last Sunday, but.. nah~ Luckily, I found it near the computer table and I thought I can continue with my sleep but dad asked me to help him out. Fine. I’ll help then~ ended up --never sleep. TT;

Today, I was so sleepy~ I slept in the bus as usual and fell asleep in my Mathematic and Science period. Everything was fine at school but until I came home, I have to face my dad again.. I wanted to do my own things but he asked me to cook lunch for him. Fine, I need to eat too anyway. After I finished my lunch, one thing that made me pissed off was, he actually didn't eat it, but asked me to throw it away because it was too soft or whatever. "WTF! Come on, don't be such a fussy eater!" FINE! I went to do my homework. Then again, he asked me to catch fish. Wait a moment! Catch fish?! Are you kidding?! F-I-N-E! I catch it for you... And you know what? I have took half an hour to catch 2 tiny little fishy...=_= *sigh* (well, I actually made the fishy suffer in the bathroom...lolz~ I'm evil! *evillaugh*)

Finally, I was free to do my own thingie. Sometimes, I prayed to God. I prayed for patient to face my dad and wisdom each day. It's not a good feeling to hate someone, especially the person which is near to you. *sigh*

Life's sucks~

2005-07-31T23:09:00.000+08:00

Mood' Life's sucks..I hate it!

Everything wasn't going very well with my dad today..

In the morning, nothing happened. Till night, I actually argued with my dad on some stupid #@^*# hotel booking thingie that wasn't important at all. He just can't be patient lately while asking me to do something which I don't know how to do. This isn't my job, I can actually spent that 30 minutes to do my things. So please be patient and speak slowly while you want me to do something.

Ya, ya, ya~ you're always the right one because you're the adult, you're my dad. But don't forget, you're a SINNER too like every single one of us. You're not a KING or WHAT! He almost slap me, but luckily my mum stop the argument. I begun to hate him. I know it was wrong but I really begun to hate him... all damnation!

I cried after the argument. I cried so hard, for 2-3 hours...I thought my mum will talked to me but NO! She just ignored me and went to sleep. I was so upset.. I need somebody to talk to but no one is there for me.. no one... I felt so lonely.. The feeling's sucks!

And then, I thought of J...I still haven let go all my feelings and it's hard for me...I'm glad he finally found someone. I hope he's happy. bla~ just forget about it... and don't think!!

Well, after all my tears dried up and I still need to finish up my Arts Project. Arghhh~ I'm regret that I never does it early and now I can't sleep! I'm so tired! I want to sleep!!! *grrr..* Damn all damnation! BAKA DES!

It's a happy day~

2005-07-30T19:04:00.000+08:00

Mood' tired but happy~ XD

Today, I went out to Alliance Bank with my brother around 10 in the morning having some thingies to do, so I had to delayed the time in Neway to 11.30 and told my friends that I'll be late. I never knew that this thingie will be so long, so I asked them to go in first. This was the first time they went to Neway and I'm the one who suppose to show them but…gomen! ><

When I reached Neway, it was already 12 noon. Everyone wasn’t very happy because of some incidence happened which I didn't know what it was, and I was surprise when they told me it ended at 1.30 (usually was 3 hours) But very soon everyone begun to be very high ! Peik Yee kept singing 'Forever Love' while we were singing other songs --kena belasah by me after that~ *evillaugh* than Mei Kwan and CC begun to shout ^^;; Then I also shouted too~ *swt* It was fun~!! *laugh*

Mei Kwan and Peik Yee accompany me to go Low Yat to buy the online prepaid card, then we straight away went to the arcade. They kept asking me to dance ez2d and they actually enjoyed watching me dance...huh?! O_O *swt* If compare them with Charmaine, Charmaine actually hate it because she felt boring when I was dancing...*swt* After that, we had couple round of car racing and Pop n Music. Around 4, we tata-ed. Mei Kwan followed Sungai Wang's way home and Peik Yee and I went home by bus.

I reached Leisure Mall around 4.30 and I called my mum. Mum told me that she was in Ue3 with my brother and she asked me to wait for her. So I walked around the Hot Market, the Popular… It was weird that I didn't went to the arcade. *swt* I have bought the animation shop but wasn't the kind that I wanted. But… bla~ Then my final destination was Speedy. I walked around there with my tired and heavy legs and waited for my mum. She finally appeared after an hour! *swt* I have bought 2 CDs of Initial D~fourth stage and 4 soundtrack which only cost me $9.90 *laugh* Wow~ I'm so happy! Lolz~ And we tata-ed after buying some bread in the Bread Story.

Result for today: I have spent my whole week's saving in just one day.*swt*

heihz

2005-07-29T20:04:00.000+08:00

Mood' busy...*sigh*

Today was the last day to hand up Project Seni. But the truth is, my group didn't even started yet! ==; *swt*
So we decided to finish it up within this weekend but kena tolak 5 markah. *sigh*

But the problem is, Shy Wen and Michele are not free this weekend because of St. John thingie. Adibah and my AJK Sej (gomen, forget his name >.>;) can't help because don't know anything about arts....ended up with -I'm doing the whole thing.

Arghhh! Why Form 3 students must done this project that are actually not existing in our PMR? Why? Why this year? Don't you know we need time to study and do revision? Don't you know we're sitting for PMR this year? *sigh*

oooooooo

Mr Chia wasn't teaching anything today. Me and Aishah knew that he was angry and disappointed because no one actually paying attention when he's teaching.

* (" If you're not going to listen what I'm teaching and doesn't like me,
then why I must waste my time to teach you? ")

We felt guilty and pittyful for him. We as students should respect him but we didn't!
So we decided to find some questions to ask him. We wanted him to know that we want to learn. And we were so glad to see him smile again while teaching us how to do the questions~ ^^ and you know what~ he's so cute!!! lolz~ *laugh*

*PS: What we guess he's thinking~

baka~

2005-07-26T19:43:00.000+08:00

Mood' Grrr...BAKA~!!!

Yup~ me and Aishah were so happy and relax after the annoying jerk, Muzakkir changed his seat to the back last few weeks.
But ever since that day, he begun more and more annoying!

Well, before I continue, let's have some intro about him == ~

He's a freaking annoying guy that always thought he's very handsome but not at all. Always didn't bring or
pass up homework and textbooks. Lazy like damn shit! And you know what, he likes to walk around the class with his bloody shit hair style posing like he's very cool. " OMG! Come on, don't you have mirror at home? Look at yourself!

Okay, I can't judge you, but PLEASE don't disturb Aishah anymore! She's sick of it!! "

*PS: Okay, the last introducing --he likes Aishah...==;

Let's continue back to the story.

I was absent yesterday and Aishah told me that Muzakkir actually sat beside her. And she just felt so uncomfortable and disturbing. And today, the guy in front of us absent *sigh* so he got the chance to sit near her. Aishah prayed so hard and luckily, Cik Cheng doesn't allowed and he have to leave the seat.

During the forth period, he came back again. He really tested my patient. If not because of Aishah, I've already scolded him for a long time! *grr...*

Every time, when he called Aishah, I will...

" Shut up lah, jerk! Aishah doesn't like you. She only treat you as her
best friend. And you know what, if you continue disturb her, she'll definitely keep away from you! She already dislike you now, or you want her to HATE you is it? Hah, HAH!! Stop thinking BG relationship and being stupid! Concentrate more in your study lah! If you don't want to study, Aishah does! So stop disturbing her and get out of her way! Tak faham Inggeris? BERAMBUS LAH, BODOH! "
----- what's on my mind... >_>

FINE! He'll get it some day!! HM! DAMN IT!

oooooooo

The last period was P.Seni and Pn Hamidah told us to finish up the batik before we can go home.

I was shocked. OMG, my school bus will be leaving within 5 minutes (usually I took 2-3 minutes to reach the bus stop) and now you're telling me that I must finish up this batik that actually I need another 2-3 minutes before I can go home!!! O_o;;;;;

At the end, I ran as fast as I could to reach the bus stop while my stomach wasn't feeling well. >_< *argh...* Luckily, uncle bus saw me and waited for me. Heihz.... *sigh* >_> BAKA DES!!!

Argh~

2005-07-25T10:35:00.000+08:00

Mood' Gomen.. ><

Yesterday, I realize that I've been skipping church for so many weeks. Everyone seems to be long time no see. ''Oh God, please forgive me for being so lazy. ><'' *sigh* And Uncle Foo Yong (my youth teacher) also begun questioning me, and I felt so guilty for being so lazy and discouraged.
I can't blame anyone or anything. I'm the one who choose to not attend church because I want to sleep. Argh! I'm such a lazy pig! I even stop going to youth on Saturday. I don't know how's the youth now, but I do know that last time, it was an...un-alive youth =_=; but I believe things will get better if we have faith in God. Amen
And I realize that I never do quiet time before O_O and I don't even know well about the Bible. =_= Arghhh! I'm such a useless Christian.
I'm starting to spend 30 minutes doing my quiet time everyday now. I can't 100% sure that I'll continue this situation after a few days..
but I'm sure that I'll give my very best to God.

And I'm suppose to go to TS meet Shingo, then go to the drawing outing organized by BMJ at KLCC after church. But I didn't. ^^;; Gomen~ ><
Firstly, I don't have transport to go to KLCC and my mum doesn't want me to go alone.
Secondly, my mum still haven give 100% trust to the cf-ers yet...*sigh*
So ended up with -- not going anywhere. -_-

Today, I'm suppose to go to school as usual with empty stomach and a tired body. But... I overslept ==; ending up with -- staying at home or you can call it, ponteng. *sigh*
This wasn't that bad anyway~ I can use the whole day to finish up my homework, to study, to online, to blog... But! I miss my lesson. ==; and the trials is getting closer and closer. Argh! Help me! I can't breathe!
And I'm very sure one thing, Hikki will definitely scold me. ^^;; Gomen!

my new blog!

2005-07-24T18:51:00.000+08:00

I have took 2 days to finish this blogskin.
Hope you guys like it. ^^

the worst arcade day...

2005-04-23T23:32:00.000+08:00

today...was the worst arcade day in my life...

went to ts as usual...and not forget to mention~ went there *alone* again.. heihz...nvm, sudah biasa.

then, i thought Queety can teman me but when i called her..*helo, where're you?**i'm in neway now. i'll be in arcade bout 2* ok..fine..i'll played myself then.

being *alone* until 2, Queety came~ but, she ignore me because she had friends to hang with...ok...nvm...i understand...

then later, i saw bunny chan, michiko, joshi and kilmasis~ really glad to see them~ and i thought i'm not *lonely* anymore~ but..nope..i'm still feeling very lonely~ mayb because we still doesn't really ''know'' each other yet, so didn't have any conversation...-.-'' nvm, i'll just wait for Jun Jun.

while half way watching kilmasis played ppp, i received Jun Jun's sms *i'm on the way coming to ts~* i was like Yeah! Finally!

wanted to wait her at the arcade but can't stand the loneliness...so i decided to ''welcome'' Jun Jun at the monorail station~

later, when we reach to arcade, suddenly tommy came out *with a angry face*, wanted to talk with Jun Jun. so Jun Jun asked me to wait for her a side while they were talking.. After they finished the conversation, Jun Jun looked very angry~ then she straight away changed tokn and played ez2d... later after finish playing, she didn't say anything and straight away went out with joshi... heihz...i'm still in a *blur situation*... in my mind was *what happened??? =_=???*

then later, she told me Tommy was scolding her just now for nothing..but later on, she played ez2d with Tommy... i was like O.o huh?? ok..fine..i don't care...just stay in the *blur situation*...

about 5 somthin, Jun Jun suddenly disappear while she already put 4 token in ez2d... i was watching at de ez2d for her~ then there was a guy wanted to play ez2d hard mode but accidently presses the real mode..(as some of you know, u can't do anything to real mode...u havta wait~) but the guy didn't know, so he left to ask for help...
so i just stood there to watch over the ez2d. then suddenly, a stupid, idoit, baka malay guy walked over the ez2d for nothing and accidently pressed the 2nd player (which was Jun Jun's token), i was like what de...grrr...

so i quickly called Jun Jun's handphone. *where're you?* then she shout shout shout dunno what! i also can't hear what she was shouting about. so i was very angry and straight away end my call and straight away said bye bye to everyone, then left ts~

OMG...i'm already in a very bad mood and...and... it was raining outside!!! I was like what de nya! O____O ok, fine, let's just walked under the rain...heihz...=_=

when reached bus stop, i waited and waited...waited and waited... still don't have any bus~ grrr!!! fine~ then finally i saw 32 metrobus, so i just went up the bus~ the bus was so so very very crowded!!! *oh man~ out of oksigen!!!* and this wasn't the worse yet~ lagi teruk was.. i went up to the wrong bus!!! what the nya!!!

TT____________________________________TT *cried*

end up with no where~ no! i doen't know where am i! oh no! i'm lost! lost in the jungle!! T.T i was out of idea and lost direction!! i quickly called my mum~ you wanna know what my mum say?

me>>Mummy! I went up to the wrong bus!! i don't know where am i now... T.T

mum>> what bus u went up to?

me>>32 metrobus..

mum>>aiyo~ 32 metrobus don't go tmn segar one!

me>>so what should i do now?

mum>>did u bring umbrealla as i told u to bring?

me>>nope...

mum>> that's ur problem then! continue stand under the rain and find ur own way to come back!

*dut...dut....dut...*

OMG~~ =______________=''''''

............................... *speechless*................

i was thinking to take cab but..but...heihz...fine..i'll take cab then... but before that, i called Jun Jun~ baka her, laugh like mad! so FINE!!! then, i took a cab went back to the bus stop and waited the bus for another 15min~ i reached home at about 7~ heihz...so tired...
after dinner, i called Hikki and told her everything...

now, i decided not to go ts with ''some'' cf-ers liao...sometimes...i just felt ignored by ''some'' of them...(maybe i was too sensitive..)today...wasn't the first time...

and i decided to try not to go ts on weekends but on weekdays..(it was so crowded today...+_=ll) even if i go there on sat, i'll balik awal...to avoid the crowd..especially baka malays...

ok~~don't know this can consider as a poem or not... but it's my feeling for today...

LONELINESS...

i'm not afraid to be alone sometimes, because i know i've lot of friends care for me..

i'm not afraid to be alone at ts because as long as there is a ez2d in front of me...

i'm not afraid to dance alone...

i'm not afraid to have lunch alone..

but what i'm afraid of...

there're friends around me...

but i'm feeling lonely...

and this..

hurts my feeling...

--THE END--

ok lah..that's all for today.... hope no next time for all of this... TATA!

bla~

2005-04-22T23:13:00.000+08:00

Just added izumi, starry and rai chan in my tomodachi neh X3, and adopted some fetuses too~ (thks to starry! ^^) ish cute~ x3

Let's start~~ Story of the day

21st April 2005, Thursday

Early in the morning, when i woke up, the first thing i did was to open my pc, quickly online then straight away checked my inbox. I was very exciting because Auntie Irene told me that she had sent the artwork that i asked her to scan for me to my inbox last night. But when i checked...i didn't received anything...heihz...T^T...
Felt sorry to kacau her..>.<

Later, me, my mum and my brother went for lunch in a restaurant- Vietnam Food ~ the decoration in the restaurant is so cool~ the lights, the tables, the chairs...even the basins!! X3
But however, my fav still Japanese Food! *high five Hikki!* XD
After lunch, me and my brother went to buy Kreko Vol.149~ (actually had brought Vol.150...-.-) but the kakak can't find it~ arggg...too bad~

22nd April 2005, Friday

Went to school as usual~ then came back from school straight away checked my inbox~ YES!!! I FINALLY RECEIVED IT! MY ARTWORK! YES! XD XD *hugz Auntie Irene and Sis Caryn* It's been a long way to get my artworks scanned...~~

First, I pass it to mum to pass it to Auntie Irene. Then Auntie Irene asked her friend to scan for her. After finish scanning, Auntie Irene tried to save it into a diskette but can't. Then she tried to e-mail it to me. The first e-mail, sent to wrong address...second time, can't recieved..T.T..third time, i gave her my second e-mail add still can't received...then the 4th time, after i had cleared my e-mail storage still can't received...+_=lll...Then she sent it to Sis Caryn to send it to me~ and finally, I received it this morning...Hu~ what a long trip...=_=''

there's another prob too...i only received 1...from 4..T.T...heihz... really want to kill my self liao...X.x

By the way~I'm now started back writing poem~ with one of my classmate, Hazel. (which is very good in eng ^^) i believe this will help me to improve my eng...>.<'' me still haven start to write yet...cos i'm so blank.

here's Hazel's poems~~

Leave

So many sounds I hear

The sound of rain and thunder

The sound of war

Fights and arguments

The heavy rain pours down

As I type my computer

In a dark gloomy house

I type of poems

Filled with darkness

I type of stories

Filled with sadness

This is a house

Of war and destruction

Quarrels and frustration

I am like a toy

Like a doll

Controlled and ruled by others

Not having freedom

Not having the ability to move

Or go anywhere

Unless brought by those

Who watches me

When can I be free?

Free to leave this sad house

That holds back so many memories

All of anger

Watching the clock ticking

I wait for days

Which turns into weeks

Which turns into months

And eventually years

But still I am waiting

Till the time comes for me

To finally, leave...

My Life

As lonely as a wolf

Howling to the moon

As lost as a little girl

That's in the dark woods

Not knowing the reason to live

Not knowing the meaning of laughter

Thinking what have I done wrong

For everything that's going on

This is my life

My sad and lonely life

If will continue still

Till the end of my life

Till the last breath I take

Alone

As lost as a kitten

Who is left alone?

In this cruel world

All on its own

As lonely as a butterfly

Which flies alone

In the big blue sky

With no one to fly by her side

What should I do?

Who can I trust?

How do I control the feeling I have inside

All these questions left unanswered

I have to sail this boat alone

Which floats on a stormy sea

So wide and so deep

Never knowing when it will come to an end

I will learn from my mistakes

And my experiences too

Hoping that it will help me

When to face the wild world one day

And some day later

This cocoon will break open

Letting out a beautiful butterfly

Which will fly away

Freely and gracefully

----THE END----

Her poems ish so nice~ X3

I get her permission to post it up~ so you guys can give any comment for this~ Hope you enjoy it~^^

Tomorrow's going to ts! XD Yeah! Can meet kaede and others neh! X3
So, that's for today lah! TATA!^^

New template

2005-04-19T20:07:00.000+08:00

Hu~ finally I've finish this templete~ nice anot? hehe (actually's downloaded one...-.-'')*cough*

I had tried to make it myself by using Microsoft frontpage but it just doen't work...T.T
hm...masih tak biasa using the new template..><

anyway~ i'm sick today..can't stop coughing..X.X *cough*
but besides that *cough*, everything seems fine today...
just downloaded the newest version for msn~ *cough*

em..don't knoe what to write...that's for today lah~*cough*
(i promise the next one will be a long one, ok?)
TATA!

Quiet Time -Susan Lenzkes

2005-04-18T20:06:00.000+08:00

QUIET TIME

Every need that kneels to

gaze upon the

cross of Christ

meets a fresh refraction of

Light and Love,

for God mounted His

Priceless Treasure,

His Purist Prism,

His Endlessly Faceted Jewel

of salvation and sufficiency

upon that cross.

Beautiful.

So incredibly beautiful.

Look again and live.

-Susan Lenzkes

boring day...

2005-04-17T14:04:00.000+08:00

Wanted to go ts today but daddy dun let~ T.T heihz..
see! see! told u! i've no freedom liao...T.T T.T but anyway, not going to do anything also if i went there~ cos no money liao..:P

em...just finish chatting with Hikki 10 min ago~ she told me everything happened yesterday~ bout JunJun, Kaede, Celica, Ayase, BMJ...heihz...miss the fun neh >.<
and i miss kaede...T.T

em...nothing special happen today~ *c the title also know lah* so...that's all for today lah~ TATA!

ts day #2

2005-04-16T21:02:00.000+08:00

Went to ts this afternoon~

almost forgot to meet my friends (sch mates included Hikki) in neway ><'' *whiu* if not...they going to kill me neh!! X.X but I'm suppose to be there by 11am but havta wait for my dad~ cos I'm following his car~ >< (if not, I've to walk all the way down to bus stop~ at lease 15 min neh *sweat*) so I reach there about 12.30pm...heihz...-.-'' actually I don't want to join them but they'll sure scold me ''mei yi qi!'' grr!! Rm10 fly away~* T.T Rm10 can play 10 times Ez2d you know? 10 TIMES!!! T.T T.T...

besides that, one of them was influenced by me and Hikki liao~ XD XD he say he wanna join us to ts arcade next time ^^ lolz~
At first it was fun~ *I'm not alone* but later~ baka Hikki wanna go sungai wang and in a sudden~~ me alone again...T.T sob...sob...but very soon later I met my friend - Queety~ *whiu* then, many things happened... First, I saw a guy, which is a ppp player~ one word can describe him - ''GENG''!!! He played with limited style (or should it be no style?? -.-'') but score...OMG..O.o...combo 362!! YES!! 362!! 362!! Maybe for some of u is not a big deal but...but for me....T.T..sob..sob.....

Second, another ppp player!! Another word to describe him - ''YING''!!! He's so cool man! X3 although he played simple simple songs but his style is so cool, beautiful, awesome, and gorgeous!!! >< ><
Good news!!! My ppp move is getting better and better!! XD XD but still must practice more and try some new songs~! Heihz...always playing the same songs..-.-'' Besides ppp, my ez2d also getting better!! Today was the second time of trying Clone (called First Love in chinese) ~ and..and...and I've pass it!! YES!! I'VE PASS IT!!! T.T T.T terharu...

*currently leg's melting*

Later, Hikki came back with Jun Jun and Celica~ First time met with Celica but not surprise with his 10% *yaoi* look because saw his webcam before~ XP (celica: don't angry nya~ XP) then, play Ez2d with Jun Jun~ OMG...Jun Jun really a fast leaner!! After the second try, she manage to pass Clone too~ X3 (sengaja choose this song to bully her but mission failed~ T.T ) She can learn a new song very fast~it's good! But Jun Jun, you must improve your style unless u're playing only for score~ let's Gambatek together!! X3

Hm...still straggling whether wanna go ts tomorrow or not...@.@ but anyway, too bad didn't saw Kaede, Adrian and Neon today ><><'' TATA!!

ts day #1

2005-04-15T22:59:00.000+08:00

I went to ts today~ heihz...went there alone again...but not for long~
while i'm playing pump (just play for fun~) suddenly there's a girl came out to me, asking me to teach her play pump >.<'' i was like O.o''huh?? but luckily my friend (which is very good in pump) is here~ so i asked him to teach loh~

but anyway, her name is Yuna, and she's very very good in ppp~!! she always play ppp in nonstop hard mode+ high speed+ sudden!!! i'm the one should ask her to teach me neh!! >.<

besides that~ i met Adrian, Neon and his friends~ heihz...all of them are so GOOD in ppp!! i dun even dare to play in front of them neh~ they're so geng and i'm so char~ T.T really havta practise more liao!!

actually decided to play RM10 for today only~ cos tomorrow i'll still be going oso~ but accidently spent RM15 >.<'' heihz...hopefully i've enough money to spend tomorrow~ if not, i'm sure JunJun is going to kill me!!! btw, quite surprise my leg didn't melt today~ ^^

wish to see JunJun (comfirm), Kaede, Hikki, Adrian, Neon, Queety (comfirm) tomorrow at ts~!

besides ts day~
i always doesn't have enough time to online~ u wanna knoe why? becos of my brother~ YES! MY BROTHER!! he wanna talk talk in the phone with his GF and that's the reason!! heihz...-.-
and yesterday, my brother went to P.D!! yes! he's not at home! NOT AT HOME! XD so i tot i've receive freedom to online~ but unfortunately, now's my dad turn T.T and he's returning back from China tonight...heihz...T.T no freedom...i wan freedom...but actually i have it rite? rite? no? huh? what am i talking about? huh? what? *currently pc's prob* XD XD

Anyway, i had read kaede's blog~ i'm happy she mention me but....NOTICE!

For those who had read kaede's 25 March 2005 blog!! NO!!! I didn't admit or even say anything that time, that day!! >< and about the token~ i just can't control myself to not play ez2d~ (i'm really out of money that time ><'') i've no idea how i feel bout him now...*highlight* now! I only know that I admire his dancing skill and style very much! X3 And one thing for SURE!! GUYS ARE NOT ALLOW TO BE IN MY MIND NOW!!! cause i wanna concentrate in my study, my PMR, okie? my study already terpengaruhi oleh ez2d liao...dun wanna to make it lagi worse ><* okie? Ok??

btw, my friend had requested me to draw her a picture~X3 heihz...hope i can make it~ cause really very busy these days~ -.-''
hm...very late liao~ gtg sleep neh~ >< ><

My first blog...

2005-04-14T23:54:00.000+08:00

Everything seems going wrong today...felt very moody today..

Don't ask me why, because i'm searching for the answer too~ -.-'' By the way~ my class is so unlucky this week. We kena blocked class third time today~~ The first and second time with no reason! (Actually the prefect who block us wanna membalas dendam~) GRRR...I'm so hungry T.T!! Today i've to stay back to duty! I'm going to die! TT

Besides that, as usual i've to wait my mum at the teksi stand in front of the leisure mall. Unfortunate, i have waited her for an hour~ with my heavy sch bag and lots of text books carried in my hand ><* SO GERAM!!! but no choice lah~ cannot go home first cause no money~ today lagi worse cause i only have 10 cent left in my voilet! NO KIDDING! 10 CENT!! ><''

Oh ya~ Tomorrow's sch sports day~ so i don havta go~ meaning no sch loh~ ^^ (but actually, it's consider as ponteng...^^;) so i'm going to strike TS!!! Muahahahha~ XD Going to find some gothic stuff too for June's cosplay~^^
okie lah~ that's all for today~!Tata~